Thursday, August 20, 2009

Be Grateful to Everyone



Time for a break from the health care debates, and back to another lojong slogan. Even though I am a Soto Zen guy, I find myself landing back with the Tibetans from time to time for a shift in perspective. It's definitely true that I have always been an ecclectic, so this hopping isn't all that surprising. My dharma name, Tokugo, means "devoted to enlightenment" and the way I see it, everything can be a dharma gate. Dogen texts, lojong slogans, watching squirrels, eating nettles, health care debates, people that like you, people that don't like you: everything.

So the title of the post is pretty obvious, although much harder to actually do. How do you be grateful to people who harm you, for example? Or people who would like to kill you? Those are big, tricky questions.

And what about the more mundane. Can you show gratitude to the dust that fills your closets? Or the junk mail that fills your mailbox?

What about the boredom you feel on a rainy day? The cloudy states of mind you have when all you want is to be clear about something in your life?

Chogyam Trungpa writes about this slogan, "without this world we cannot attain enlightenment ... by rejecting the world we would be rejecting the ground and the path."

I think we're pretty effective as humans at rejecting our lives. It's probably a science by now, so well ingrained in each of us that we pass the skills onto the next generation without even knowing it, so well developed are they.

Somehow, it's essential to flip around the idea that the things we experience as obstacles are obstacles. The definition of obstacle is something that impedes progress or achievement, stands in front of, blocks the way. But I think the Buddha way is to flip that over, to learn to embrace what comes, and fold it within our lives on the path. To see everything as a dharma gate.

I've been discussing with another practitioner on-line about what he sees as the prevalence of anti-Christian sentiment amongst some of the on-line Buddhist community. I'm at a loss about how best to address this issue - I do agree with him to some degree - and yet I also understand some of the sources of the anger and upset that drive western Buddhists to make such blanket statements.

How can we show our gratitude to the evangelical Christian who says we are going to hell? That everything we practice is the devil's teachings? What does that look like without becoming a doormat in the process?

During the last three years of the Bush Administration, I took a vow to stop making personal attacks on the President, and I included him in my loving-kindness meditations. I actually upset some of my friends and family when I started saying things like "I don't believe the President is stupid." Some people had no idea how to respond. This didn't at all change the fact that I wanted him out of office, and believed that his policy decisions were destructive and created massive amounts of suffering. But I felt that continuing to make personal attacks opened the door to personal attacks on anyone, including myself.

I can actually say that President Bush, and those who worked with him, gave me the opportunity to see how fruitless personal attacks are - or maybe more correctly, how much negative fruit is created from personal attacks.

I don't think this fully answers the question above. Maybe it's a start. Every situation is different, and calls for a different approach, even if only slightly different.

So, there it is - Be Grateful to Everyone. Or, everything as I see it. Now on to actually doing it! There's the work of our lives.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Complimentary Healing Methods and the Heath Care Crisis



The discussion of health care continues, both all around the U.S. and also here in the land of 10,000 blogs. It's been pleasing to see so many people commenting on this issue, and bringing diverse perspectives to the table in mostly respectful ways. Today, I would like to address an element of health care that is always on my mind, but which hasn't directly appeared in this current discussion.

J9 Anonymous - who I think is different from the first Anonymous that posted on here, wrote the following, addressing the high cost of western, allopathic medicine (the current, dominant medical model:

"Another thing people could do for better free food is to forage in season. Every fall in NYC, the old Chinese ladies go around to places in the parks where the gingko trees are and collect the nuts. Nutritious plants that might be in your area:juneberries, highbush cranberry, thistle, stinging nettle, lamb's quarters, burdock, dandelion. There are lots of library books on the subject. Because foraged food is more nutritious you don't need to eat as much volume because it is so rich."

In a later post, she went on to speak about going to alternative/complimentary healers, saying the following:

"I don't want to say doctor because it excludes homeopaths, naturopaths, OMD'S, midwives, lactation consultants, Native American healers, etc. Most of the healers I deal with are single person operations so they don't even have a secretary. In the city, you might go to their office or apartment but out here in the country, we actually go to their house or they come to ours. None of them have ever asked about my income so there is no such thing as making too much or too little if you need a break. This is face-to-face human interaction and compassion that I am talking about."

To me, these comments strike at the heart of the problems of western, allopathic medicine. Not only has it become to exclusively dependent on a single approach to health, but it also has lost, in a lot of ways, the human connection/interaction component that is so necessary to healing.

The passion I have for a single payer model is mostly driven by the desire for all people to have access to western, allopathic medicine when it most counts: during a crisis. Time and time again, western, allopathic medicine proves to be wonderful when it comes to putting us back together again after a major accident, or dealing with life threatening conditions like heart attacks and strokes. And these same issues are so horribly expensive that those of us without insurance, or who have poor insurance, are doomed to an added fear of huge bills to pay at the very least, and often bankruptcy and other economic crises that follow us for years after the actual event. Beyond that, the fact that many people end up waiting to get care until it's an emergency means that there is an added level of suffering which never needed to be there in the first place. Isn't that our vow - to end all suffering. Even if it's impossible, I say it's worth putting every effort we have in that direction. Saying "too bad" or "poor you, better save more money next time" to those who don't have health insurance coverage isn't the Buddha Way in my opinion.

However, the comments of J9 bring up both the deficiencies in our health care system, and also the deficiencies in the basic care knowledge of the general public. In less than four generations, the basic knowledge about common medicinal plants and wild foods that most of our ancestors, no matter where they came from, had, is now dangerously rare. Although it's true that in recent years more people have taken an interest in alternative/complimentary medicine models, it's also true that most people look at me in great surprise when I say they could eat stinging nettles not only to detoxify their bodies, but also as a source of plant protein. Here's a link to some more info about nettles Nettles - Medicinial/Nutritional Information

There many easy, safe, and inexpensive ways to prevent disease that people have forgotten due to the rise of the current medical model, combined with the rise of large scale corporate farming, supermarkets, and convenience-based living in general. A man named Samuel Thomson in the early to mid-19th century built an entire system of populist medicine around a pair of plants, one of which is the cayenne pepper. Who hasn't heard of chili peppers, and yet a lot of people have no clue that peppers are a great preventative medicine, and can also be used for such basic ailments as the common cold and the flu. Here's a link to Cayenne info. Cayenne Pepper Health Benefits

When discussing health care, and changes to the current system, I also think it's essential that we consider what it means to be healthy, and how might approach both preventative medicine and healing from illness. One of the benefits of not having health insurance these past several years is that it has increased the intensity of my interest in other ways of creating and maintaining health. I have truly come to believe at a lot of suffering and illness present in modern societies is directly related to how disconnected we have become from our natural environments. And even though I still see a need for a national, single payer health care system, I also believe that it's imperative that we return to the knowledge of ancient therapies, plant medicine, and wild foods.

p.s. The photo is of the nettle patch in my garden. It started as a single plant I discovered in an alley three years ago, which I transplanted and let grow in its new, more soil-healthy environment.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Health Care, Anonymous Commenting, National Priorities



The flurry of comments on my recent post about Health Care in the U.S. Whole Foods, Health Care, and Buddhism led me to talk a little more about it.

First, I would like to point out the comments of Kris, who brings another important issue to light. She writes "The health care debate has been heart wrenching and maddening, but I'm grateful for all of it. Grateful that even the most wretchedly greedy and ignorant views are being heard. I'm hopeful that those views will help to "turn" the direction of the country toward a more compassionate, generous way of life. When we hear views so obviously rising from greed and fear, how can one not feel some twinge, some quake inside that says— 'this cannot stand!'" I absolutely agree with her. Without making the widely varied ideas we have about health care, or any major issue for that matter, public, it's hard to really address where we stand as a group, and move forward in any direction. This is the great struggle, and value of living in a more open, democratic society. To the degree that we have suppressed dissenting views, or have used wealth and power to talk over other viewpoints, our nation is all the more weaker for it. I, personally think the U.S. has a lot of work to do when it comes to being an active, democratic nation, but the lively discussions and debates about health care show that it can be possible.

Second, I'm very intrigued by the repeated comments made by some "Anonymous" person. I find anonymous commenting, especially repeated commenting against the position being stated, to be questionable. It's one thing if the person doesn't have an account, or a blog, and has to publish anonymously. But quite another if the person is choosing to be anonymous in order to say things that they wouldn't ever say to someone in person, or even online if their name was attached to it. The fact that this Anonymous commenter has never attached his/her name to any of the comments makes me wonder a bit about the intentions behind them. Many bloggers on here have had to change their open door policies following attacks from anonymous writers, which I think is sad. James over at Monkey Mind stopped accepting comments on his blog all together awhile back, which makes you wonder what kind of rot he must have been receiving, and for how long. More recently, Reverend Danny stopped accepting anonymous comments due to, I'm guessing, a similar level of repeated nastiness. These are just two examples of what I would argue is a downside of the internet - namely that the relative anonymity is an excuse for some people to let all their "bad behavior" spill out. I'm all for discussion, disagreement, even sharp tongued language about issues and ideas being expressed. But leveling personal insults and attacks while hiding behind a computer screen is not only cowardly, but also - for those of us who claim to be following Buddha's teachings - is disparaging the third treasure of sangha. As of now, the comments of the Anonymous on my current blog haven't quite plunged to the level of personal attack, but a few seem to teeter on the edge of doing so. I'm not interested in parsing out what has been said in these terms; mostly, I just find the whole issue of anonymous commenting to be problematic.

Finally,said Anonymous commenter displayed a lot of interest in the national debt, and in people not spending "beyond their means."

The total estimated U.S. national budget expenditures for 2009 are around $3 trillion. Now, here for me are some interesting numbers within that budget.

# $408 billion - Medicare
# $224 billion - Medicaid and the State Children's Health Insurance Program (SCHIP)
# $70.4 billion - United States Department of Health and Human Services

Total - $702.4 billion

# $515.4 billion - United States Department of Defense
# $145.2 billion(2008*) - Global War on Terror
# $37.6 billion - United States Department of Homeland Security
# $44.8 billion - United States Department of Veterans Affairs
Around $190 billion in appropriations for the Iraq War and Afghanistan War.

Total Approx. $930 billion

What I would like to know is where are these same people who complain about the cost of health care when the defense budget and all it's attachments are released? Are they out protesting about the fact that nearly 1/3 of our entire budget is spent on military and military related costs? I somehow doubt it. Deficit hawks are only hawkish when it comes to certain programs. When the government is feeding the military industrial complex, and keeping in place the veneer of safety and security, the hawks are nowhere near their squawk boxes.

Here are a few more interesting numbers.

# $1.21 trillion - Individual income tax

# $949.4 billion - Social Security and other payroll taxes
# $339.2 billion - Corporate income tax

Total Approx $1.29 trillion

Frankly, that corporate income tax number seems pretty damn small. But again, that tends to be off the board when it comes to most defecit hawks. Meanwhile, the CEO's and upper management of large corporations, and the rich stockholders of the same companies, walk off with millions, sometimes billions of dollars. What does any one person or family need that kind of money for? Why does Bill Gates need $57 billion? Why does Warren Buffett need $50 billion? Why does the Walton family collectively need more than $70 billion?

And why do many of us in the United States believe such a system that allows these kinds of excesses is worth supporting, and even touting as the greatest way to run an economy?

There is no scarity of resources here in the U.S. We could address our deficit, and still provide health care for everyone here, if our collective priorities were different.

The Buddha pointed out time and again that greed, hatred, and delusion are at the root of every issue we humans have. This issue is no different. In my opinion, if our collective priorities don't change, we'll continue to be swamped in a murky soup of all three poisons.

Monday, August 17, 2009

More on the Body



Reading and writing about the body and meditation appears to a big a draw for me right now. It seems to be corresponding to a certain internal shift I've felt over past several months which most easily can be described as "feeling the ground more fully." While walking, I actually feel my feet moving up and down, for example. And when one or both feet are flat, sometimes they even feel like they are slowly sinking into the ground below. Not some sort of scary, quick sand sinking, but more like a raindrop slowly settling in between blades of grass.

Back to the article from BuddhaDharma Start With Your Body.

Phillip Moffitt responds to a question about being mindful of the body with the following: "I start guided meditation by saying, Bring attention to the body - not your body, the body. I'm pointing to a phenomenon occurring right now."

This is a very interesting set of comments, even if, on the surface, they look obvious or not all that earth shattering.

How often do people actually experience their bodies as they are in the moment?

Isn't it more often the case that we're lost in our ideas about what is happening? Or we're swimming in conditioned thinking about what we look like? Or are swamped in the details of some diagnosis given by doctors? Or are in competition mode, wishing we had a flatter stomach, stronger arms, or less flabby ass, like those models in the magazines we read, or in the movies and tv shows we watch? Or maybe are locked in a battle with memories from some physical trauma from the past?

There are so many ways to spin out from the body as it is right now.

Phillip Moffit says the three most common modes of relationship we have with the body are judging, comparing, and fixing. And at least here in the U.S., these three modes are nearly state sanctioned, and law codified as not only appropriate ways of relating, but actually the most important. All popular forms of media reinforce the notion that you must look a certain way, feel a certain, and if you don't, you better damn well fix it so that you do. And sadly, people spend billions of dollars on products, procedures, and programs (The 3 P's) that are designed to prop up or create an image of their body that is more in line with the popularly accepted images of beautiful and handsome. Make no mistake - this isn't a single gender issue. We all can, and do, fall for these lines of thinking and acting.

As Moffit comments, any time we land in one of the three common modes of relating with our bodies - judging, comparing, and fixing - we're trapped in dualism, and creating a solidity to our experience which isn't actually there. I know for myself, there have been plenty of times during meditation where some slightly intense energy will appear, be it physical pain somewhere or emotional pattern or whatnot, and I can spin in stories about what might happen. If I let this go, will it get more painful? Will I have some sort of medical emergency? Will I die? These are fleeting thoughts, but sometimes I stick to them, and not surprisingly, tension expands and makes things "feel worse."

And beyond that, although I'm not all that prone to the 3 P's, I have been known to fuss over my hair way too much, worrying I don't "look good," whatever that means. I might not buy a bunch of products and services, but I have repeatedly returned to the restroom to check and recheck the day's hairstyle. Is it hanging in the right place? Did the wind blow it all over? Just the other day, I walked up to the window of a closed restaurant because the wind had picked up, and I thought things had gotten "too messy."

How much of our lives do we waste on this kind of stuff?

It goes far beyond taking care of your body and your appearance. It's just plain neurotic.

I think it's important, when recognizing these kinds of behaviors, to not fall into punitive land about it. Harshly judging the neurotic relationships we have with our bodies just continues the cycle of separating from the present moment - from what's actually happening now.

However, at the same time, cultural conditioning around the body is so dense, and so powerful, that we really don't have any time to waste. What good is a spiritual practice if it doesn't work to undo the layers of cultural conditioning we have? I say it's time to stop saying yes to every whim and fear we have about our bodies, and to start paying attention to what's really there.

Let's drop the three modes, drop the three P's, and embody the home that's been waiting for us.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Whole Foods, U.S. Health Care, and Buddhist Teachings



I have been a little bit reluctant to directly link the current health care debates going on in the U.S. to Buddhist teachings, but feel compelled to so following an article in yesterday's Wall Street Journal by Whole Foods CEO John Mackey Whole Foods Solution . The following post will address some of the issues I see with the approach outlined by Mr. Mackey, and also consider how spiritual practice might impact how one sees these issues.

First, my own story. I work at a small non-profit that cannot, due to funding, afford to give us health coverage. I have long been passionate about my work, teaching English as a Second Language, and feel strongly that it's been a good line of work for me. However, not only does my employer not cover me, but I can't afford to purchase a plan that doesn't also have a 5-10 thousand dollar deductible. More than once, I've been told "move on, get another job." And I am looking, but this brings up the larger issue of telling people to leave careers they are passionate about, or even which are “good enough” because of something like lack of health care coverage. It's kind of a stupid set up if you ask me. I have watched many talented teachers leave the adult basic education system I work in because of low pay and no benefits. And this isn't just our system's issue; people are losing their benefits, or getting much weaker plans, on a daily basis.

So, I support a single payer system. I don't believe that a government run system is a perfect answer because there are no perfect answers. I imagine my readers from Canada, England, and other places might have a few words to say about government health systems. But as far as our own goes , I truly believe it is driven by greed and profit margins, and that too many in the U.S. have forgotten that medicine isn't about making money, but about caring for people and reducing suffering. What I keep coming back is the question “What is most effect way to address the individual and collective dukkha in our society around health and health care?” And the answer that keeps coming back is single payer.

Now, to the Wall Street Journal article. John Mackey's position is fiercely in defense of "free market" system health care. The way he writes about it is exactly why I believe we are in trouble here in the U.S. Let's take a look at some of his lines.

1. "While we clearly need health-care reform, the last thing our country needs is a massive new health-care entitlement that will create hundreds of billions of dollars of new unfunded deficits and move us much closer to a government takeover of our health-care system."

When did health care become an "entitlement"? I just don't understand how we have gotten to the point where people can say something like this with a straight face. Here you have a rich, white male, who has assets in the hundreds of millions of dollars, who most likely lives in a gated community, and who has people in his company who do all of the “menial” and “lesser” work for him – and he’s speaking about entitlements. It’s laughable.

Here’s a few things for us in the Buddhist communities to think about. It’s definitely true that everything is impermanent, including our health. That we shouldn’t cling to anything, including our body, believing it will last, because it won’t. But isn’t it also true that we have teaching after teaching speaking about how this human body is a vehicle to enlightenment and that we better “take heed, and make use of this precious life!” And beyond this, what about the emphasis on generosity, and not being stingy? Obviously John Mackey is probably not a Buddhist, but I’m not about to think that all Buddhists disagree with his position, because I’m pretty sure he has some supporters among us out there. So, the question is “How is basic health care for all people ‘an entitlement’, and how does that square with Buddha’s teachings?” I think even if you disagree with Mackey, but support any form of health care system that leaves out large numbers of people – as the current one does – this question is for you.

2. The government should "Remove the legal obstacles that slow the creation of high-deductible health insurance plans and health savings accounts (HSAs)."

Mackey argues that high-deductible plans are one of the wonder-drug answers to the health care problem. And sure, they're great for large companies because they cost the company less, but what about the individual who is supposedly covered? As if poor people, or even a lot of middle class people, have an extra couple thousand of dollar tucked away to pay for a medical exams, a broken arm, or even a handful of regular visits and follow-up visits. I paid nearly $200 for a ten minute exam at a low-income clinic four years ago, because my meager salary was over the federal “poverty” guidelines. That was just for the visit, with no exams, no medications, no nothing added. Mackey writes in a way that suggests Whole Foods is compassionate because they offer these crappy health insurance plans, and then give their employees some money to cover some of those costs they might incur.

What I don't understand from a business stand point is how all this red tape - having to set up HSAs, and having someone keep track of all the paperwork involved, is such a cost-effective solution for big business. Many of these companies have huge departments full of people whose main jobs are to deal with insurance claims, coverage for employees, and all the paperwork under the sun. How is that cost effective? Is it that they are so blinded by their belief in the power of the markets that they can't see how, in this case, they are being drained economically? Of course, for every CEO like Mackey, there is another one who sees this very thing, and decides to do away with health insurance for some employees all together. Or simply eliminates half the jobs in the company under the guise of “restructuring.” We have a serious compassion-deficit in corporate America, regardless of what people believe is the best way to address the current health care crisis.

3. "Repeal government mandates regarding what insurance companies must cover. These mandates have increased the cost of health insurance by billions of dollars. What is insured and what is not insured should be determined by individual customer preferences and not through special-interest lobbying."

This strikes me as a great way to increase the number of denials for coverage from the already denial-happy insurance industry. Let's face it: they love saying no because it increases their profit margin. And eliminating regulations that mandate certain issues and procedures be covered will only make it easier for these companies to throw ethics out the window in the name of the bottom line.

4. "Many promoters of health-care reform believe that people have an intrinsic ethical right to health care—to equal access to doctors, medicines and hospitals. While all of us empathize with those who are sick, how can we say that all people have more of an intrinsic right to health care than they have to food or shelter?

Health care is a service that we all need, but just like food and shelter it is best provided through voluntary and mutually beneficial market exchanges. A careful reading of both the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution will not reveal any intrinsic right to health care, food or shelter. That's because there isn't any. This "right" has never existed in America."

Ah, the good old Constitutional argument. I guess while we’re at it, let’s go back to the days of slavery, the days when women and people of color could not vote, the days when Senators were chosen by the state government and not elected by the people. Whenever someone uses the "It's not in the Constitution argument," we should all pause.

Let's go further with the above statements, especially the line about no intrinsic right to health care, food or shelter. This is the end point of free-market capitalism - you toss the suffering of others to the wind. You say that they are personally responsible for their problems, for their lack of health care or food or whatever, and you deny that there is such a thing as collective responsibility. In other words, as Buddha might say, "You believe way too much in a solid, separate self."

5. "Even in countries like Canada and the U.K., there is no intrinsic right to health care. Rather, citizens in these countries are told by government bureaucrats what health-care treatments they are eligible to receive and when they can receive them. All countries with socialized medicine ration health care by forcing their citizens to wait in lines to receive scarce treatments."

This is the classic fear tactic being pummeled into the minds of Americans again in the drive to demonize any alternative to the privatized system we currently have. Never mind that people are routinely denied coverage for treatments deemed "unnecessary" by private insurers. Never mind that people are routinely denied the option of choosing doctors "out of network" by their insurers. Never mind that there are plenty of waiting lines for non-emergency procedures under the current system, run by these same private insurers. There is no such thing as complete freedom of choice, regardless of the system. And in terms of choice, I'd argue that in many cases, we living under the privatized U.S. system actually have less choice. As for the scarcity argument, it can't get any scarcer for me than the no access until I'm falling apart that I have now.

6. "Unfortunately many of our health-care problems are self-inflicted: two-thirds of Americans are now overweight and one-third are obese. Most of the diseases that kill us and account for about 70% of all health-care spending—heart disease, cancer, stroke, diabetes and obesity—are mostly preventable through proper diet, exercise, not smoking, minimal alcohol consumption and other healthy lifestyle choices."

Now, I agree that taking care of yourself, including making wise eating decisions and exercising, are beneficial to one's health. And that some people's decisions definitely have a negative impact on their health. I'm not going to argue against that.

But the above position is a privileged one, made by someone who:

a)probably lives nowhere near a toxic waste dump, commercially poisoned water supply, waste treatment facility, or nuclear power plant - all of which seriously impact people's health, regardless of what the do personally. People of color and poor whites generally face the brunt of these issues because they lack the resources to move elsewhere, and struggle to get their voices heard by decision makers who could change the situation.

b)has the economic resources to pay for healthy food at all times. Many people, especially poor people, live in areas where there are simply no grocery stores at all, or only grocery stores that sell low grade, highly processed foods. These same people, if given the opportunity to purchase high grade, healthy food often don't have the economic resources to do so. Farmer's markets, community gardens, and home gardens help to some degree, but aren't sufficient answers to the problem of obtaining quality foods, especially in northern climates, where the growing season is much shorter.

c. has access to preventative care, which can help stem problems like obesity and high blood pressure at a much early stage. This is not to say that those of us who are uninsured or under-insured can't learn to eat and behave healthier - we can. However, as a group, we often have less free time, and have to work more just to make ends meet, and thus have less time to research healthy solutions, or get help adjusting our lifestyles to better support our health. A lot of people forget that regular access to the internet is, itself, still a privilege not shared by many of those on the bottom end of the economic scale.

Frankly, personal responsibility only goes so far, no matter what one does. And using personal responsibility as an argument against something is often a smoke screen for something much less polite sounding: it's your problem, don't ask me to help you with your problem. It's not a very generous way to live, or to run a society. In addition, it weakens the ability to effectively use that argument when it's called for. Sometimes people do need to "take personal responsibility," but when it's applied to everything over and over again, the meaning gets diminished, and people either tune out, or follow blindly.

7. "Whatever reforms are enacted it is essential that they be financially responsible, and that we have the freedom to choose doctors and the health-care services that best suit our own unique set of lifestyle choices."

As far as I'm concerned, the best of the various options to fulfill this call is single payer. It eliminates the middle man (private insurers) and all the costs associated with their bureaucracy. It allows more freedom of choice in terms of doctors. And it extends these opportunities to all of us, not just those who have the financial resources and/or good fortune to have employers who offer coverage.

Beyond this, I personally feel that covering basic health care for everyone is most in line with Buddha's teachings. Maybe I'm wrong; maybe I'm a deluded treehugger or whatever. But those of you out in the Buddhist world who disagree with me, please tell what system you think might best address these issues, and also tell me how your spiritual practice aided you in coming to that decision.

If you haven't guessed already, I'm of the firm belief that if our spiritual practices don't aid us in how we approach the social issues of the day, they aren't really getting at the marrow of this life. This doesn't mean we all must become activists, or that monks living in seclusion aren't "doing the practice." But it does mean that our spiritual lives should lead us to care more about others, to pay more attention to issues that effect us collective, and to do what we can to lessen suffering and increase joy.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Craining to Experience the Body



I had a pair of "body" focused experienced this morning, and then finished reading the article I wrote about yesterday. The first experience happened while biking. I had just crossed a bridge over the Mississippi River, and was enjoying the wind blowing at me, as well as the legs pumping, pushing the biking up the gentle slope. The problem was that I was looking down a little too much, and so didn't see what was ahead of me until I was almost on it. Just a moment before passing, I looked up and saw the eyes of a wild turkey, its neck stretching out from behind a light pole. The sight shocked me, being in the heart of the city, this huge bird that didn't seemed phased a bit by my passing it so closely. I stopped and looked back at it. It looked at me, and I felt my heart racing and a roar of laughter fly out of my throat. A few cars passed, and I saw the drivers also smiling, maybe at the two of us together, maybe just at the bird.

The second experience was an outdoor meditation by one of the many lakes in Minneapolis. To any of you who have never actually done zazen outside, I recommend it highly. This is how it has been done for most of history, and many people continue to meditate solely or primarily outside around the world. So, what's different about it? Keeping with the topic, partly what's different is that it's easier to feel the body. Maybe this is especially true with the wind blowing, but I noticed how easy it was for me to tune into my breathing, and to focus on different sensations occurring within. It's possible that this was just "how it was" today, or that I'm more comfortable with natural sounds like birds calling, dogs barking, and the wind, and thus am able to experience those without the need to judge or comment internally. Also, the flow of changes outside - such as the wind shifts or ducks squawking - the natural rhythm of that seems to cue me in to my own rhythms in a way that I don't experience indoors. I often have to work at dropping story lines about the bangs, clunks, shifts in temperature, talking sounds, etc. that I experience indoors. In other words, it takes longer for me to "get out of my head" and fully embody my zazen, life itself at that moment.

In some ways, this feels like an artificial division, and certainly, zazen is zazen no matter where you are or what is coming up.

But when it comes to attention to the body, and shifting away from that "heady zen" I spoke about a few weeks ago, sometimes a shift in location (or wild turkey) is called for.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Objectified Bodies; Sexual Puritanisms



A few weeks ago, I wrote a piece about Buddhism and the lack of attention many of us pay to the body Heady Zen, No Body.. Not long after that, the new BuddhaDharma magazine arrived in my mailbox, containing an article entitled "Start With Your Body." Apparently, this is on a lot of people's minds right now. Here is an except from the article you can check out, if you don't have the magazine. Start with your body

I haven't finished the article, but I would like to offer some reflections based upon what I have read so far. In my opinion, this is an essential issue to address in our practice, especially as Buddhism is unfolding in its newer, non-Asian dominant homes.

The mind/body split that has been so strong in "Western" countries since at least the enlightenment period, and probably could be easily traced back to figures like St. Augustine (354-430), is slowly being examined. In fact, I would argue that part of the appeal we convert Buddhists have to the practice is that the teachings seem to address this very split. However, attraction to holistic teachings is one thing, and implementing them in a holistic way, both individually and collectively, is quite another.

In the article cited above, Reggie Ray, who has spent years developing practices around meditation and the body, said that in "our Western culture" we "objectify the body as somehow separate from our awareness, separate from our minds." Now, I'm wary of his totalizing language about culture. There is no single "Western" culture. Think of all the different subgroups of people just in the U.S. - they don't all believe and behave in the same ways. But I would say there is a dominent strain of thought that does help create this objectification Ray speaks of.

The body as sex object. The body as an advertising method, and sales tool. The body as a machine. The body as a workhorse, means of obtaining income through labor. The body as powerhouse athlete. These are a few examples of the ways in which we objectify our bodies, splitting it off from the mind, and our spiritual lives.

Frankly, the first of these, the body as sex object, tells so very much about the state of things. There is a lot of hand wringing over following the third precept, for example, and what it means in a non-monastic, not quite fully lay oriented practice. Once you get past the issues of rape, incest, and pedifilia, which most people agree are not healthy nor in accord with Buddha's teachings, then all hell breaks loose. What about adultery? That seems to be time and time again rejected in Buddhist teachings, and yet a fair number of the sex scandals in "Western" sanghas have involved adultery. What I find interesting about the issue is adultery is that it instantly brings up impermanence. Our relationships don't last, at least in the way we want them to, even the ones that do last until one or both partners die. The obsession with an ever-lasting monogamy in the "West" seems to really be tripped up when you start to dig deeply into the ways in which our lives actually unfold.

I, myself, desire a long-term monogamous relationship, and hope the next one is the one that lasts for the rest of my life. But experience tells me that it's probably more likely that the next one won't be the last one. I don't think this is being sour or pessimistic - it's reality. So, given the tension between our desires and what actually happens, what's an intelligent, maybe even dharmic way to proceed?

The whole movement for Gay Marriage feels like another example of this tension between the storybook stories we have and realities. On the one hand, it's wonderful that the love of couples, regardless of gender, is starting to move into the mainstream. And along with this movement, an effort to equalize the playing field when it comes to the social/economic benefits of marriage. I support these changes wholeheartedly.

And yet, at the same time, it's still focused on a certain type of relationship, and specifically the one kind of relationship held up as THE BEST and often the only form of acceptable relationship in Western societies. Which leads to the question of those queer folk, or for that matter, straight folk, who choose to commit themselves to others in a different way. Where do they stand? Where does the couple that chooses not to marry stand? Where do those people who view love differently from "death do us part" fit in? Are their decisions not as worthy or loving as those who choose to marry?

And what about all the problems that arise when people feel they have to get married to be able to live together, or to have access to economic and social benefits, or to live in the country their partner is from?

How do we address this in light of the Buddhist precepts? In other words, what do we mean when we vow to "not misuse sexuality"? And I'm specifically pointing at that "We" because I think we in the convert Buddhist communities haven't really looked at these issues enough to have any clear answers.

And why? Because talking about sex, sexuality, and how it impacts our spiritual lives isn't something a whole lot of us are comfortable with. Which takes us back to the whole mind/body split - even though we talk a good game about believing in the interconnectedness of all things, how we really believe that out of the mud of our lives, the lotus will grow, when it comes to sex and sexuality, it all falls apart. Sure, we do a good job lamenting with others how terrible it is that everything is sexualized, or how today's children are learning about sex "too quickly" or "from the "wrong sources" - in other words, we convert Buddhists can bitch with the best of them about social ills.

But really, are we collectively, as a spiritual group, any more enlightened about sex and sexuality than say, the evangelical Christians so many of us like to lambast?

How many sexual puritanisms have we, consciously or unconsciously, incorporated in our efforts to establish sanghas and Buddhist practice in the "West?"

I'm pushing the envelope because it needs to be pushed. Dishonest, greedy, controlling, unexamined sex lives bring an enormous amount of suffering into the world. It seems to me that if you really take the Buddha's teachings seriously, this has to include deeply examining issues of sex and sexuality. And I think this has to happen individually, with those we have relationships with, and in our broader spiritual communities.

Hopefully, I'll have more to write about when I finish the article. But for now, that will have to do. Enjoy!